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Everything Depends on G-d

So strange how I end up learning the same lesson over and over again. And after I learn it real good I always end up being in real danger of forgetting it. Everything really only depends on G-d. Everything. Including me writing this right now and you reading it. the running of the computer or the very existence of the paper that this is printed on.  I get an inspiration to do something that I think should be a relatively simple thing to do. It ends up being way harder then I expected and then I am forced to scream out to G-d and all the Tzadikim that I know to help me. They help and then I get stuck again in the middle of my project. I scream out again. Get helped again and so on until in the end it all goes smooth and mission  is accomplished. then I think that I did the whole thing. But looking at all my success it is clear that the answer that I am looking for is always right in front of me, but it is always hidden from me, until it becomes clear and obvious, then I feel stupid for never seeing the answer before but then I realize that the reason that I didn't see it was because it was hidden from my mind by G-d because G-d did not want me to see the solution because G-d wanted me to pray. Once I pray hard enough then I get the insight that I was looking for. This lesson applies to all the areas of my life. Now the question remains, Why don't I pray more often and more harder. And the answer is that I don't know. But then again there are always higher and higher levels of prayer.

In a Na Nach Life

So I am getting another urge to write. I guess that history is being made right now and that I am part of it and so it might be interesting for someone to read.  I never want to be famous so I will not admit to my name until I know that G-d has promised me to never make me famous. Though my story is interesting and the events of my life, even though they may seen "normal" are none the less quite extra ordinary Today has been a good day, I guess all the days are good if one has faith that all is for the good. Last night I spent the night learning how to make websites and I was quite happy with what I learned. In other words I learned something instead of just fiddling around. I think about my death daily and though I would like to ignore completely, It is not possible to face reality on  a daily basis without thinking of it. For there are many Illusions that trap a person and nothing dispells them like a thought of one's own death. Though the rule is never to think about it so much as to cause one's own death (G-d forbid) and of course never to get depressed. That is the rule: No depress and No stress. A little taste of bitterness really sweetens the rest of the day.